Kevin’s mother stopped sweeping and stared at his face.“What’s wrong, baby? You look like you have a lot of stress on your mind. Come on in.”“Ma, I wanted to kick it with you a little bit. I wanted to ask you something.”“All right. Go ahead.”“You know Richard and James. We’ve been boys...”Before Kevin could finish his mother cut him off, “Yeah, I know. You’re whole life. You and Richard were like twins, and James came when you were 10. Yeah, I know the whole story. You have been boys your whole lives.” Kevin’s mother was trying cut the small talk, sensing there was a problem.“Yeah, but Ma, things are different now.”“What do you mean, different? Talk to me, son.”Kevin took a big swallow and decided to speak on what was bothering him.“James said something to me last night, and I have to admit it’s been eating at me.”“Okay. What happened?”“He said that he and I are the same and the life I’m living is just as sinful as the life he’s living and that can’t be true, right?” Kevin’s eyes faced the ground out of fear his mother was not going to say anything favorable. Kevin’s mother placed her soft but wrinkled hands on his face and lifted his chin up from his chest. As only a mother who loves her child could, she spoke frankly as she had his whole life.“What do you want, the good news first or the bad news?”“You know me. Give me the bad news.”“Well, son, James is right. You are living just as sinful as he is. You didn’t need me to tell you that. So please tell me what is really bothering you.”Kevin reluctantly asked, “So what the hell is the good news?”“Well, the good news, son, is you have some understanding of the Lord. James doesn’t, so he’s further lost than you are.”“All right, okay, help me out here. I mean, I read the Bible, and I go to church with you on Sundays, but I am not sure I understand what you are saying? If sin is sin, there is no difference, so there can’t be a good side.”Kevin’s mother smiled as she listened to her son.“What I’m saying is imagine both of you are drowning. James is in over his head, and you’re up to about your nose, so you are still getting a little air in. James is under the water and can’t see where he is."Kevin nodded, more out of feeling the need to do something than from him fully understanding his mother.“Son,” his mother continued, “what’s happening now is your Holy Spirit is being tossed back and forth because of the relationships you have with your friends. The Bible is clear. It says to flee all sinful situations and here you have a friend who makes his living off sinful situations, which means every time you get together, his sinful nature is brought to your table. But you have your own problems. You have become your grandfather, and so James, not realizing it, is speaking the truth.
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Wanted to share a bit of what I am working on with my new book "Luke Warm Saint", an inspirational novella.
I know the original due has changed a few times. But I have found my edge and I am getting this book together and ready for release.
Book will be made available to pre-order soon on the Bravin Publishing website. Stay tuned. http://www.bravinpublishing.citymax.com/products/BravinBookStore.html
Sunday, May 31, 2015
"A Compassionate Kick In The Butt"
Good Morning guys.
I wrote a blog stating I wasn't doing for me because I was caught up doing for everyone else.
We all write for various reasons, attention, clarification, entertainment, whatever. In my case with that blog it was to allow others to see where I'm going and hope they hold me accountable. Since folks do pay attention to what you write and then check if it lines up with what they see you are doing. I had a friend, who lives in Europe, who read the blog and felt he could help me get to where I was trying to go. As well as release the things I have been holding back on.
He offered, in his words, "A Compassionate Kick In the Butt". I was honored. However the real test was, would I be willing to humble myself to allow, someone who is basically a stranger, into my life to assist me. I felt the conversations' we've shared on social media to this point were of valued and so I decided to give in and do so.
The call we shared the other day allowed me to look at myself through a different lenses. When I say "I needed to be on that call",,, I truly did.
I am writing this morning to say to anyone reading. Don't miss chances to get help from those on your pages and sites. Some are really into you as a person and want what's best for you. Don't be afraid to humble yourself to get help. Not always be careful but open minded.
Finally, when you see the opening run, not walk, though it to the person you want to see in the world. The world is going to spin regardless but are you allowing the real you to take part in all its glory. That is what I am doing with allowing the K. L. God created, who first picked up a pen to help others and to express himself to get back to business.
The motto of my company Bravin Publishing "Writing From the Hear The It Should Be" and that is exactly what I am working on. I sense my passions returning and it has made the days following so much better. The Lord doesn't make mistakes and if you learn to listen to the voice inside of you and pay attention to those sent to help you. There is nothing you can't do in this world.
I pray this helps someone. God Bless.
K. L. Belvin
Hebrews 13:2 (NIV)
2 Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it.
Check out my friend Brian. I am sure his words will help you also. https://bgdtcoaching.wordpress.com/
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
I want to get much done, but helping others, I have not made myself a priority. I have writing which has to be done, religious study, health issues to deal with, and I have to look for a new school since I was told I am not part of the future of my current school. (I am going to be careful in how I explain that one.) It seems if you're not careful you can turn your want to help others into a personal crutch or barricade. As practicing Christian I want to help others when they need me or are in trouble. This is something I have been doing for awhile now. However the past few weeks I had to take time to self-reflect. One thing which stands out to me is, to a fault, I've started to place others in front of my needs. I have attached emotional dismay when thinking about not being of service when asked for help. But things needed to change.
This past week I lost a friend from my childhood. She had just sent me a "poke" on Facebook which was her way of saying "hello and how are you." The next day she had a massive heart attack and never recovered. In less than three days my friend was gone. This hit hard because it made me think of myself. Where am I with my health, how close am I to checking out of this life? I was told by my Dr. things had to change in how I was taking care of myself. Back over the Easter break, I was doing so when another problem (my leg) become an issue. I was cleared this week to go back to working out but my leg will be a problem until I get healthier and lose the weight. This is currently my number "1" focus. I have revamped my personal plan and working out. diet, and lifestyle has moved up the list. Its so easy to look at everyone else and try to fix them when your own gorilla is sitting in the room alongside of you. Choke you to death quietly.
Next, my writing has suffered over the past few months. My latest book "Luke Warm Saint" should have been completed since the editor gave the completed work back to me some time ago to work on. I allowed working on another authors book derail my focus as well as school work. I love the work we did on Sister Melinda Harper's book "A Profit to He Husband" <<<<<(please support her book) I am so proud of what we accomplished with creating this book. It is a great read. However, when I should have been writing myself I wasn't. Again it seems I would take on the needs of others and push my work to the side. Then there is my school work. I started to allow my principal and the work I am required to do get out in front of the writing I know needs to be done. I didn't have as much work to do as I allowed myself to think but the little bit I did have grew in my mind. I allowed the frustration of getting the work done to quiet my writing. I see now I have to quiet the noise around me to get my work done.
Finally, my religious standing has been lacking and I have been torn with studying my bible and writing. Sadly my current book "Luke Warm Saint" is an inspirational fiction novella which is reflective of my faith. The two should be a great marriage. Instead I have been procrastinating with both. I also have missed time at church and didn't sit down to work on this story when not in church. I pray often and speak to the Lord daily. I personally know that is not enough. You have to speak to the Lord and then get out and do more. "Faith with out works is death" I know this all so well but yet I embraced procrastination. Can't happen any longer if I am going to make the moves necessary.
I am sitting here writing this blog because I fell behind in my blog writing but also to vent and allow others to see where I am. I figure if I put it out to the world I am and will be accountable to my words. I am revamping my Google schedule this week and I think it may be time to take a break from social media. I did a 30 day fast from the net some time ago. I think it may be time to do so again.
So here is the current plan of action and things I plan on getting done:
- Workouts 3-5 days a week. Keeping a close eye on the leg to make sure its OK after the work.
- Get my current book "Luke Warm Saint" done by the done and re-edited by the second week of June. (the 13. Yes Friday the 13th. I'm not worried. LOL)
- Restart my reading plans on my Bible app and continue to read my bible daily.
- Get 10 to 15 resumes out, to look for a new position.
- Bowl twice a week
- Less social media (1-2 hours in a day no more)
- Blog bi-monthly (Stick to twice a month)
- Read 2 to 3 hours a day (Kindle and Audio books)
- Say no to others and not feel upset about taking care of self.
- Attend more events which are going to help me learn more about my craft.
- Watch less TV. Only when my work is done or along with getting the work done. No just sitting and watch unless everything is complete.
I am glad I got this blog done. I spoke it into existence and now its time to make things happen. I have goals in place and I need to reach them to better myself.
K. L. Belvin